Home Sweet Home

Finally daddy made up his mind about which house is he getting. And I had to travel all the way back there while carrying so much cash in my bag. When I reached the house, I was like ...okay..so far so good. Although it doesn't have a nice view like East Lake, it's cosy. Just nice. It has balcony which I doubt going to be any use. The rooms are normal. Nothing special. Just when I thought I was only the messenger, something surprised me even more. Daddy wanted to put the house under my name. MY NAME for that house. No wonder he asked for my IC no the other day. So, this just made me a very privilege girl in the world. I have a car which is under my name and daddy bought it. A house under my name and daddy bought it as well. So much of getting a place which I can call my own, daddy came and made it come through. I guess I'm very lucky and not everyone can be like me. 

Anyways, Smallville Season 8 just started and 1st episode was awesome. I mean, it just blew off my mind. To see Green Arrow, Aquaman, The Canary and The Martian Man again in quest of helping Clark is just mind blowing. Let's just wait for the rest of the stories. This is going to be a lot of FUN....

For the first time

For the first time after 3 years, I went for buka puasa with sayang. The feeling is surreal but it's true. After so many years together, this is the first time. Like what people would say, there's always the first time for everything.

Where did we went? Sunway Hotel Sun&Surf. All because of Digi giving me 25% discount for the buffet. Else I won't even think of going there. But everything else just seemed to be sinking when you're sitting in front of someone who you would love to spend your entire life with.

Anyway, we are going to have this marvelous project together with an old friend. It's going to be a bomb. Can't wait for the project to finish. At least I know what I'll be doing if I quit work. But the project is going to be 1 step at a time. I hope the project can be done by next year.

Good ol times

I saw this picture on my facebook last night. Uploaded by an old classmate. The 1st thing I did when I saw the picture was rolled on my bed. I mean....OMG...look at me 13 years ago. Sayang would laugh at me if he sees this. hahahha. Just look at me. Young, innocent and pure? wahahhahaha. But hey...after 13 years, I still look the same. Nothing has changed. No wonder nobody ever thought of me being 30. Awet muda...kakkakaka.

I still remember the teacher used to live opposite my house. Really scared the wits out of me. The day I saw him standing outside of his house was the day I turned into a mouse. Hahahhaha. To have a teacher .... your teacher staying right opposite of your house is really a nightmare. I think that teacher always got bullied by us in class. He taught us BM and everyday he got bullied by us. Hahahhaha.

After 13 years, everyone is scattered all over the globe. I wish I could go back to school again and walk down memory lane. See my old classroom, eat the canteen's food...I bet they don't serve the same food like they did 13 years ago. But what the heck...just walking down the school's aisle, the classroom corridor ...that would be great.

Welcome Home Baby...

I went to see our what is supposed to be new house today with sayang. As we walked into the condo building, I whispered to him "So far so good". And as we climbed up the stairs, there it was...a beautiful, resort like, hotel like swimming pool laid before us. Then, as we walked around the condo's compound, the both of us were speechless. It was a really nice place to stay. It's like staying in a resort. A 5 star resort I must say. Neither one of us would ever thought that the house has the most beautiful excellent view until we stepped into the house. Once we saw what was ahead of us in the living room, we looked at each other and said "we definitely could stay here forever". It has the Mines lake view, the bungalows somewhere around Mines. It was excellent. The both of us immediately fell in love with the house. Even the master bedroom has the lake view.

The security.... superb. To go into the house, you don't need a key. Instead, you are the key coz they are using the thumb print security. To enter the block, you need an access card. The unusual part of the condo is that the store is at the car park. So imagine if you need to get something from the store, you will need to go all the way down and take it and then go up again. But the lift lobby is exceptional. There's mirror and chairs. Cool? Sounds cool to me.
As we toured around the house, smile built up on his face and he whispered "Welcome Home Baby". I looked at him and just smiled. Glad he like the house as much as I do. Now that's a place I could build "us" in.


I hope daddy would agree with my judgement on the house. It's definitely not easy to get a house where you can just fell in love with it immediately. It has the view, the location and most of all, it will be a place sayang and I could build "us". This is our home....Welcome Home Sayang...

The entrance to the condo. It looked like some colloseum wannabe from far but...never judge book by it's cover.

Inside the condo complex. A resort...hotel style of swimming pool.

Now this is the excellent view I was talking about. Not sure the picture was taken from which unit of Block D but mine is also in Block D.

Another excellent view from the Master bedroom. Sorry the picture is distorted. It's not the exact size actually.

Dodot would love this swimming pool. Bet he's not going to be at home all the time if he sees the swimming pool.

*Pictures are taken from various sites but all are the actual look and feel of the condo

Happy Merdeka

Today marks the 51st year of Malaysia being independent. Honestly, this is not a bad country after all. The only problem is the government. Crazy government. Wonder when can they think straight.

I'm still in shock actually ... up to today. Sayang's car got stolen last Wednesday evening. In front of everybody. Crazy. It's not that he drives a Merc or a Bimmer. It's just a simple Waja. Seeing his sad face makes me feel sorry. That look on his face was the exact look I'm trying to avoid. From that day onwards, my car has become his car as well.

I noticed that the both of us has becoming closer and closer each day. It's like the 1st time. Feels so good. I hope it will last although I know what my future holds for me. I hope I will be free and be independent as well....

Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!

Time is running out

Why do I feel so sad today? Suddenly I woke up this morning feeling not right at all. My mind kept thinking about what my dad asked me to do. Apply for MAS Wings and pack my bags and go back for good. How can I leave when my heart is here. Even if I do go back, I doubt if I will ever be happy again. Going back means being in the shadow of my parents. Moreover, the job will definitely be in my hands. That is not the way I want it. I want to find a job with my own effort and not because of someone.

I'm really running out of time now. Anytime, they will force me to pack and leave. How can I leave when I'm not done loving him? I'm just not done doing everything with him. I'm just not done sharing what I have in life with him. I know very well what my future holds. I know very well what is going to happen to me in the next 4-5 years. I wish I can freeze the time and let it be like this for the rest of my life.

Why is my life isn't like anyone else? Why do I feel that my parents keep treating me and see me like I'm some 10 years old kid who needs to keep their eyes on. For 30 years I've suffered. For 30 years I had them overshadowing me and controlling my life. I've let go my dream for the sake of them. Now do I need to sacrifice myself again? I'm very tired with what transpired in my life. I'm very tired.....

It's has been a very tiring journey.....

L.OV.E

LOVE...what is your definition of love? What happen after you found love? What happen after love found you?

I watched SATC again for the ....4th time now? Can't help it. It's just so nice to watch something that used to be one of my favourite show. I don't know what made me watch that movie over and over again. Perhaps because there's things in that movie which reminded me of myself.

After the failure of my past relationship, I gave up on finding love and let love find me. And when it found me 3 years ago, it just stayed there no matter how many times the hiccups happened. Although most of the time, I felt that sometimes, it's just me who is hoping and sometimes I felt that everything is just like what it was when it 1st began.

Everytime when I see my friends who are happily married and have a family of her own, I asked myself "Will I ever be like them? Happily married with kids". And then after I looked back at what happened then and now, I don't know if I will ever get married or ever think of getting married. Most probably, I will join Samantha Jones in the "I don't believe in marriage" file.

But whatever it is, if I still have the time to love him, I will love him with all my heart....

Ever thine, ever mine, ever ours...