Something exciting

I simply forgot to write this entry. It's a must. I finally met one of my favourite DC, Justice League character.....Wonder Woman...(clapping my hands and legs). Finally....and Yay!! It's Wonder Woman you know. It's Wonder Woman. Well, I actually had to fight with the kids and the kids' mom and dad to take the picture. And guess what. When the emcee asked the kids do they know who Wonder Woman is, all the kids were like ..."Wonder who?". But when the emcee asked do they know Batman, everyone were like "Yes!!!....".

Can't believe I met Wonder Woman....Hahahahah. I better stop yanking. It was a school holiday event in Sunway Pyramid. I purposely dragged Dodot to Sunway Pyramid that Saturday and thank God I don't have to go to Hatyai that day. Else, I won't be able to meet Wonder Woman.


Presenting Wonder Woman, Batman and Flash



I don't know who is that kid. Told you I had to fight with all the kids to get their pictures. Stop staring at things you're not suppose to stare ....hahahhaha. (I know it looked .....weird)


So, I've met Spongebob, I've met Doraemon and now I met Wonder Woman, Batman and Flash. I wonder when can I meet Superman.....hmmmm

3rd year

Same day today 3 years ago, I gave away what should be only given after matrimonial. Amazing how I still can remember all that and still counting. I can still see everything that happened that night clearly in my mind and the silly question he asked me after that.

Do I ever regret about it even after everything that has happened? People always said that everything happen for a reason. Probably the reason was me. Probably the reason is from the other side. It's best to be kept a private secret. I can only say that I was the happiest person at that time although a little part of me still being afraid that I might go through the same ordeal again. But, we never know what will happen in the future. We just have to relive it and enjoy it.

I must stop being so melancholy about things. I have a good job and a good position here. But somehow somewhere I'm still afraid of something. There are too many 'What if' in my mind. Running around like madman. The other day I got a really shocking news. Can't believe he will ended up like that. But those things really scare me off. What if I ended up like that as well?

My Office....My Penthouse

Now... If anyone ever tell you that you work in a penthouse, make sure you ask that person is it a service suite or he/she company took the entire penthousee. Don't get fool. Hahahha. Nevertheless, no matter what people call my office (I've had friends calling it store), it has the best view ever. I can release my stress and tension by looking outside and enjoy the view although it's all skyscrapers. But hey, there are mountains as the backdrop.

See...it's not as big as anyone would think it would be. It's as big as my bedroom. Minus the coooollness and the view. My bedroom doesn't have this kind of view. It's expensive to get this kind of view.

KL City view. It's beautiful at night. Trust me

Bangsar view. See how expensive is the view.

Presenting the manager's table. Wahahhaha. Doesn't look like a manager's table, right?

My lappie is soooo imported. It has Thai symbols on it. Sawadee Ka....Hahahhaha....

I got this cutiess from my Regional Sales Director. It's the characters in Popcap game; Chuzzle. I've played the game long time ago but not anymore now. Can't believe I can get this. Awesome.

One morning in Mid Valley

I saw this one morning last week from my dear office. I really like the view from here. And when I saw the formation of clouds, I thought I must take picture of it and write about it.

A beautiful creation

Just look at the clouds. Those who are working in KLCC especially in the higher zone must be feeling like working in the sky or in the clouds. Hahahaha. But unfortunately, as the sun rises, the clouds started to fade away.

Another sleepless night

I can't sleep again tonight. Everything is just so messed up. My feelings is so messed up. My Kar Jie found out what happened and she surprised me. I thought no one would ever read what I wrote the other day. Everytime when I looked at those pictures and the video once again, I felt disgusted at one part. Sorry for myself on another part. But, I've learnt my lesson from my past that feeling sorry for yourself never help.

I had to see him today to get my car and my driving license. I guess this will the last of me asking a favour from him. I need to be independent from now on. To see him again, gave me a mixture of feelings. I don't know what to say to him. I don't know if I should laugh at his jokes. It was dead silence in the car just now when he picked me up frm the train station. It was as if he's a total stranger to me. And me? I tried my hardest not to drop a tear although a tear threaten to fall anytime soon. Now, as I am writing this, my mind went back to 3 years ago when he and I spent nights sms-ing each other and calling each other. And when I came here, I was the happiest person on earth. Finally I found someone who would take care of me and mend my long broken heart. Now.....everything is just a memory.

Today is Friday the 13th and today means it's already the 2nd week I start working there. Time flies really fast. Everything is going well there. And to my surprise, someone messaged me and I just couldn't be bothered at all and ignored the message like nobody's business. Why should I bother? 1 of the sentence I remembered very clearly. "The company treat you nice." Oh please. Since when? If the company treated me well, I wouldn't have the urge to leave the moment I joined. If they treat me nicely, I won't be shedding some tears there. And I won't be in a bottleneck situation every month trying to survive with such salary. My move to leave was perfect. Also, he said about something not to use my contacts for competitive purpose. Hello...if the people I work with is happy working with me and wants to continue the good relation, who am I to decline and say "Oh no. You can't be doing this." What nonsense can that be? I've been hearing this flying around these days about the company and the people I've worked with. See...I don't have to take away the people I've worked with. They WILL initially run away.

Anyways....it's fun working there. Not about my lappie now has Thai symbols all over and Thai sticker. But it's fun. It's fun to do something I'm familiar with and help people who are not familiar. Sharing my knowledge with people who has the passion for the same thing I'm doing. I pretty like my new boss as well. His ideas are far far better. He thinks before he speaks. And he speaks by the facts and not just merely speaking things. 15 years working in the industry is really making someone amazing. I hope I can be like him 1 day.

Euro is on. Italy is playing. I'll continue again. Forza Italia....

A gruesome discovery

Last Tuesday night I had a gruesome discovery. Even if the email was sent like 2 years or even last year, I was extremely upset and frustrated by it. To know the fact that he was seeing someone else while he was seeing me, is just too upsetting. When I asked him who is she, he just told me that they were only friends. FRIEND....people said a picture paints a thousand words and those pictures doesn't seem to express the word FRIEND at all. And to add to all that, there's even a video which also doesn't seem to spelling the word FRIEND out loud. It looked so bloody intimate. Something that I never do at all. The emails that he sent to her, is not the kind of email that he would send to me. Let alone the words. Those words, he never say that to me as well.

I'm so upset now that it has to be this way. I was doing fine before Christmas. I was already forgetting whatever that has happened. And then when he started to be nice to me and all, I got weak and the whole drama continues. At times, I thought that I may have a special privilege compare to that girl. But still, he sees me as a FRIEND and nothing more. I gave him a slap on the face that same night. I told him "FRIEND not sleep together. FRIEND don't have sex with each other." I was already very comfortable in settling down with him. I treated him like he's already been a part of me. A part that it is impossible to detach. And now.....

I don't know now. I'm tired of running away. I'm tired of crying and trying. I'm just too tired of even to think about it. After seeing all that, I felt that history is repeating itself. The only thing that make it worse is that I've done and I've given more than what I should give. Perhaps it's true after all what people said. If you love someone, don't give yourself up 100%. Keep some for yourself. What truly upset me, he of all other people knew what I went through last time. How I got my heart broken like a shattered glass. How I despise man. How I build my defense so high and strong. How I became so cold. He knew what I went through. And yet he dare to do that to me. I remember when I agreed to be his girlfriend, I told him not to break my heart and not to make me cry again. But in the end, I shed tears more than what I should shed and my heart broke more than what it should be.

I'm very tired now. I don't know what is going to happen to me......

A new beginning

A new life. A new beginning. That is all I can say. I'm out of what I would call hell and it seems that life has been good to me (I hope I didn't speak too soon). But it has been great. A lot of things happens these past few months after my last update. Too many exciting things. Too many interesting things. Too many coincident things. Some unexpected things.

The petrol price is increasing....again. This is the ....I lost count of how many times. At times I wonder why is there no alternative to find the replacement for petrol. What is the government doing? These days, the propaganda should be like the one in V for Vendetta. "The people should not be afraid of the government. The government should be afraid of the people." Even if it is just a statement from a movie, realistically, that is what it is suppose to be. All this while, everybody up there doesn't seem to be working their brains out on how to tackle the issue. Everyone just say yes to someone and then implement it. Not taking into consideration of how the people is doing. Let alone those with the higher income group. What about those who are not earning as much as the C level? What would happen to those people? Are they going to be left out and left to suffer? After all, they are also the one who actually help to build the nation. I guess that is the main reason why I don't vote at all. Because at the end of the day, it's all about the politician's interest and never the people's interest. Even if during the campaign period, they would shout out loud that they are going to help the people. That is soooooo bull...