Home Sweet Home

Finally daddy made up his mind about which house is he getting. And I had to travel all the way back there while carrying so much cash in my bag. When I reached the house, I was like ...okay..so far so good. Although it doesn't have a nice view like East Lake, it's cosy. Just nice. It has balcony which I doubt going to be any use. The rooms are normal. Nothing special. Just when I thought I was only the messenger, something surprised me even more. Daddy wanted to put the house under my name. MY NAME for that house. No wonder he asked for my IC no the other day. So, this just made me a very privilege girl in the world. I have a car which is under my name and daddy bought it. A house under my name and daddy bought it as well. So much of getting a place which I can call my own, daddy came and made it come through. I guess I'm very lucky and not everyone can be like me. 

Anyways, Smallville Season 8 just started and 1st episode was awesome. I mean, it just blew off my mind. To see Green Arrow, Aquaman, The Canary and The Martian Man again in quest of helping Clark is just mind blowing. Let's just wait for the rest of the stories. This is going to be a lot of FUN....

For the first time

For the first time after 3 years, I went for buka puasa with sayang. The feeling is surreal but it's true. After so many years together, this is the first time. Like what people would say, there's always the first time for everything.

Where did we went? Sunway Hotel Sun&Surf. All because of Digi giving me 25% discount for the buffet. Else I won't even think of going there. But everything else just seemed to be sinking when you're sitting in front of someone who you would love to spend your entire life with.

Anyway, we are going to have this marvelous project together with an old friend. It's going to be a bomb. Can't wait for the project to finish. At least I know what I'll be doing if I quit work. But the project is going to be 1 step at a time. I hope the project can be done by next year.

Good ol times

I saw this picture on my facebook last night. Uploaded by an old classmate. The 1st thing I did when I saw the picture was rolled on my bed. I mean....OMG...look at me 13 years ago. Sayang would laugh at me if he sees this. hahahha. Just look at me. Young, innocent and pure? wahahhahaha. But hey...after 13 years, I still look the same. Nothing has changed. No wonder nobody ever thought of me being 30. Awet muda...kakkakaka.

I still remember the teacher used to live opposite my house. Really scared the wits out of me. The day I saw him standing outside of his house was the day I turned into a mouse. Hahahhaha. To have a teacher .... your teacher staying right opposite of your house is really a nightmare. I think that teacher always got bullied by us in class. He taught us BM and everyday he got bullied by us. Hahahhaha.

After 13 years, everyone is scattered all over the globe. I wish I could go back to school again and walk down memory lane. See my old classroom, eat the canteen's food...I bet they don't serve the same food like they did 13 years ago. But what the heck...just walking down the school's aisle, the classroom corridor ...that would be great.

Welcome Home Baby...

I went to see our what is supposed to be new house today with sayang. As we walked into the condo building, I whispered to him "So far so good". And as we climbed up the stairs, there it was...a beautiful, resort like, hotel like swimming pool laid before us. Then, as we walked around the condo's compound, the both of us were speechless. It was a really nice place to stay. It's like staying in a resort. A 5 star resort I must say. Neither one of us would ever thought that the house has the most beautiful excellent view until we stepped into the house. Once we saw what was ahead of us in the living room, we looked at each other and said "we definitely could stay here forever". It has the Mines lake view, the bungalows somewhere around Mines. It was excellent. The both of us immediately fell in love with the house. Even the master bedroom has the lake view.

The security.... superb. To go into the house, you don't need a key. Instead, you are the key coz they are using the thumb print security. To enter the block, you need an access card. The unusual part of the condo is that the store is at the car park. So imagine if you need to get something from the store, you will need to go all the way down and take it and then go up again. But the lift lobby is exceptional. There's mirror and chairs. Cool? Sounds cool to me.
As we toured around the house, smile built up on his face and he whispered "Welcome Home Baby". I looked at him and just smiled. Glad he like the house as much as I do. Now that's a place I could build "us" in.


I hope daddy would agree with my judgement on the house. It's definitely not easy to get a house where you can just fell in love with it immediately. It has the view, the location and most of all, it will be a place sayang and I could build "us". This is our home....Welcome Home Sayang...

The entrance to the condo. It looked like some colloseum wannabe from far but...never judge book by it's cover.

Inside the condo complex. A resort...hotel style of swimming pool.

Now this is the excellent view I was talking about. Not sure the picture was taken from which unit of Block D but mine is also in Block D.

Another excellent view from the Master bedroom. Sorry the picture is distorted. It's not the exact size actually.

Dodot would love this swimming pool. Bet he's not going to be at home all the time if he sees the swimming pool.

*Pictures are taken from various sites but all are the actual look and feel of the condo

Happy Merdeka

Today marks the 51st year of Malaysia being independent. Honestly, this is not a bad country after all. The only problem is the government. Crazy government. Wonder when can they think straight.

I'm still in shock actually ... up to today. Sayang's car got stolen last Wednesday evening. In front of everybody. Crazy. It's not that he drives a Merc or a Bimmer. It's just a simple Waja. Seeing his sad face makes me feel sorry. That look on his face was the exact look I'm trying to avoid. From that day onwards, my car has become his car as well.

I noticed that the both of us has becoming closer and closer each day. It's like the 1st time. Feels so good. I hope it will last although I know what my future holds for me. I hope I will be free and be independent as well....

Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!

Time is running out

Why do I feel so sad today? Suddenly I woke up this morning feeling not right at all. My mind kept thinking about what my dad asked me to do. Apply for MAS Wings and pack my bags and go back for good. How can I leave when my heart is here. Even if I do go back, I doubt if I will ever be happy again. Going back means being in the shadow of my parents. Moreover, the job will definitely be in my hands. That is not the way I want it. I want to find a job with my own effort and not because of someone.

I'm really running out of time now. Anytime, they will force me to pack and leave. How can I leave when I'm not done loving him? I'm just not done doing everything with him. I'm just not done sharing what I have in life with him. I know very well what my future holds. I know very well what is going to happen to me in the next 4-5 years. I wish I can freeze the time and let it be like this for the rest of my life.

Why is my life isn't like anyone else? Why do I feel that my parents keep treating me and see me like I'm some 10 years old kid who needs to keep their eyes on. For 30 years I've suffered. For 30 years I had them overshadowing me and controlling my life. I've let go my dream for the sake of them. Now do I need to sacrifice myself again? I'm very tired with what transpired in my life. I'm very tired.....

It's has been a very tiring journey.....

L.OV.E

LOVE...what is your definition of love? What happen after you found love? What happen after love found you?

I watched SATC again for the ....4th time now? Can't help it. It's just so nice to watch something that used to be one of my favourite show. I don't know what made me watch that movie over and over again. Perhaps because there's things in that movie which reminded me of myself.

After the failure of my past relationship, I gave up on finding love and let love find me. And when it found me 3 years ago, it just stayed there no matter how many times the hiccups happened. Although most of the time, I felt that sometimes, it's just me who is hoping and sometimes I felt that everything is just like what it was when it 1st began.

Everytime when I see my friends who are happily married and have a family of her own, I asked myself "Will I ever be like them? Happily married with kids". And then after I looked back at what happened then and now, I don't know if I will ever get married or ever think of getting married. Most probably, I will join Samantha Jones in the "I don't believe in marriage" file.

But whatever it is, if I still have the time to love him, I will love him with all my heart....

Ever thine, ever mine, ever ours...

One day after the birthday

Today is the 1st day after I'm officially 30. Yesterday was like any other day of the year. Alone. Bored. Quiet. Lonely. People said we should do something crazy to mark the 30. But what did I do? I went back from work and sleep straightaway. I'm getting good at pretending the birthday is like any other day.

Today we moved to a new office suite. Brussels. From Las Vegas to Brussels. It's halfway around the world. It really is. The view....well....I can say that the view is nothing compare to Las Vegas. I miss the Las Vegas view. I can really hear the LRT sound if you strain your ears. It does.

What am I going to do tomorrow? It's the 2nd day after 30. 1st, in the morning I'm going house hunting....again. It's going to be final tomorrow. Can't take it anymore. It just has to stop. Thinking of where to stay and what kind of house should I get is so stressful. Looks like I'm going alone because Cheng Hui can't go with me. And sayang....he....well....let's just not upset myself about him. Sometimes I feel like he's not my sayang at all. Sometimes I feel he's my sayang. Being with him is just so tiring. One moment he's the wall. One moment he's all over the place. Anyway, probably I'll go and watch The Mummy .... alone tomorrow. I've wasted my GSC movie voucher. Thought of watching Batman again using the voucher but unfortunately.... it got wasted again....like last year. I think GSC should stop sending me voucher since I'm not going to use it.

Anyway, Thank You to everyone who wishes me Happy Birthday yesterday. I know I'm a very private person. I don't make a big hoo haa about my birthday. I prefer to keep a low profile life. So, I hope you understand. Thank you once again....Let's wait for 31 next year....

Happy Birthday to me

Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me....

Again..like all the years that went by, it's going to be me, myself and I sitting alone in my room looking out into the sky and left a heavy sigh. Seems like all my birthday wish never come true. Not even this year. No matter how desperate I wanted it to be a memorable one before I give my whole life and my whole entire future to the hands of my parents, it just won't come true. Sad... but true.

My time is running out now. Parents kept calling asking me to apply for a new job. Weird. When I've already gotten a very good offer, they want me to apply for another one. Reason: "We're getting old and we want our children to be near". Honestly, my heart is not anywhere near home. Not just yet. I have a life here. A life I build on my own. From my sweat and blood. I've worked hard to get where I am today. It's not easy for me to let it go. It's not easy for me to change into something I've left for a very long time. If I were to go back, I will have to start all over again and I'm not getting any younger each day. It's really sad to even think of it. It's really upsetting to even talk about it. It just hurts a lot.

What will happen now that I'm turning 30. I know my biological clock is ticking and I can hear it ticking every seconds of my life. People said that your write your own fate. But my fate is written by my parents. Not by myself. All of my friends said that it's my life. I run my own life. It's easy for people who do not know me to say that. I wish I can run my own life. I wish I can choose who I want to be with for the rest of my life. But it's not that simple. It has always been like that since I was a kid and it will never change.

This year I don't feel like wishing for anything since none of my wish all this years ever come true. I will just let the day goes by like any other day.... Happy Birthday to me....

Something exciting

I simply forgot to write this entry. It's a must. I finally met one of my favourite DC, Justice League character.....Wonder Woman...(clapping my hands and legs). Finally....and Yay!! It's Wonder Woman you know. It's Wonder Woman. Well, I actually had to fight with the kids and the kids' mom and dad to take the picture. And guess what. When the emcee asked the kids do they know who Wonder Woman is, all the kids were like ..."Wonder who?". But when the emcee asked do they know Batman, everyone were like "Yes!!!....".

Can't believe I met Wonder Woman....Hahahahah. I better stop yanking. It was a school holiday event in Sunway Pyramid. I purposely dragged Dodot to Sunway Pyramid that Saturday and thank God I don't have to go to Hatyai that day. Else, I won't be able to meet Wonder Woman.


Presenting Wonder Woman, Batman and Flash



I don't know who is that kid. Told you I had to fight with all the kids to get their pictures. Stop staring at things you're not suppose to stare ....hahahhaha. (I know it looked .....weird)


So, I've met Spongebob, I've met Doraemon and now I met Wonder Woman, Batman and Flash. I wonder when can I meet Superman.....hmmmm

3rd year

Same day today 3 years ago, I gave away what should be only given after matrimonial. Amazing how I still can remember all that and still counting. I can still see everything that happened that night clearly in my mind and the silly question he asked me after that.

Do I ever regret about it even after everything that has happened? People always said that everything happen for a reason. Probably the reason was me. Probably the reason is from the other side. It's best to be kept a private secret. I can only say that I was the happiest person at that time although a little part of me still being afraid that I might go through the same ordeal again. But, we never know what will happen in the future. We just have to relive it and enjoy it.

I must stop being so melancholy about things. I have a good job and a good position here. But somehow somewhere I'm still afraid of something. There are too many 'What if' in my mind. Running around like madman. The other day I got a really shocking news. Can't believe he will ended up like that. But those things really scare me off. What if I ended up like that as well?

My Office....My Penthouse

Now... If anyone ever tell you that you work in a penthouse, make sure you ask that person is it a service suite or he/she company took the entire penthousee. Don't get fool. Hahahha. Nevertheless, no matter what people call my office (I've had friends calling it store), it has the best view ever. I can release my stress and tension by looking outside and enjoy the view although it's all skyscrapers. But hey, there are mountains as the backdrop.

See...it's not as big as anyone would think it would be. It's as big as my bedroom. Minus the coooollness and the view. My bedroom doesn't have this kind of view. It's expensive to get this kind of view.

KL City view. It's beautiful at night. Trust me

Bangsar view. See how expensive is the view.

Presenting the manager's table. Wahahhaha. Doesn't look like a manager's table, right?

My lappie is soooo imported. It has Thai symbols on it. Sawadee Ka....Hahahhaha....

I got this cutiess from my Regional Sales Director. It's the characters in Popcap game; Chuzzle. I've played the game long time ago but not anymore now. Can't believe I can get this. Awesome.

One morning in Mid Valley

I saw this one morning last week from my dear office. I really like the view from here. And when I saw the formation of clouds, I thought I must take picture of it and write about it.

A beautiful creation

Just look at the clouds. Those who are working in KLCC especially in the higher zone must be feeling like working in the sky or in the clouds. Hahahaha. But unfortunately, as the sun rises, the clouds started to fade away.

Another sleepless night

I can't sleep again tonight. Everything is just so messed up. My feelings is so messed up. My Kar Jie found out what happened and she surprised me. I thought no one would ever read what I wrote the other day. Everytime when I looked at those pictures and the video once again, I felt disgusted at one part. Sorry for myself on another part. But, I've learnt my lesson from my past that feeling sorry for yourself never help.

I had to see him today to get my car and my driving license. I guess this will the last of me asking a favour from him. I need to be independent from now on. To see him again, gave me a mixture of feelings. I don't know what to say to him. I don't know if I should laugh at his jokes. It was dead silence in the car just now when he picked me up frm the train station. It was as if he's a total stranger to me. And me? I tried my hardest not to drop a tear although a tear threaten to fall anytime soon. Now, as I am writing this, my mind went back to 3 years ago when he and I spent nights sms-ing each other and calling each other. And when I came here, I was the happiest person on earth. Finally I found someone who would take care of me and mend my long broken heart. Now.....everything is just a memory.

Today is Friday the 13th and today means it's already the 2nd week I start working there. Time flies really fast. Everything is going well there. And to my surprise, someone messaged me and I just couldn't be bothered at all and ignored the message like nobody's business. Why should I bother? 1 of the sentence I remembered very clearly. "The company treat you nice." Oh please. Since when? If the company treated me well, I wouldn't have the urge to leave the moment I joined. If they treat me nicely, I won't be shedding some tears there. And I won't be in a bottleneck situation every month trying to survive with such salary. My move to leave was perfect. Also, he said about something not to use my contacts for competitive purpose. Hello...if the people I work with is happy working with me and wants to continue the good relation, who am I to decline and say "Oh no. You can't be doing this." What nonsense can that be? I've been hearing this flying around these days about the company and the people I've worked with. See...I don't have to take away the people I've worked with. They WILL initially run away.

Anyways....it's fun working there. Not about my lappie now has Thai symbols all over and Thai sticker. But it's fun. It's fun to do something I'm familiar with and help people who are not familiar. Sharing my knowledge with people who has the passion for the same thing I'm doing. I pretty like my new boss as well. His ideas are far far better. He thinks before he speaks. And he speaks by the facts and not just merely speaking things. 15 years working in the industry is really making someone amazing. I hope I can be like him 1 day.

Euro is on. Italy is playing. I'll continue again. Forza Italia....

A gruesome discovery

Last Tuesday night I had a gruesome discovery. Even if the email was sent like 2 years or even last year, I was extremely upset and frustrated by it. To know the fact that he was seeing someone else while he was seeing me, is just too upsetting. When I asked him who is she, he just told me that they were only friends. FRIEND....people said a picture paints a thousand words and those pictures doesn't seem to express the word FRIEND at all. And to add to all that, there's even a video which also doesn't seem to spelling the word FRIEND out loud. It looked so bloody intimate. Something that I never do at all. The emails that he sent to her, is not the kind of email that he would send to me. Let alone the words. Those words, he never say that to me as well.

I'm so upset now that it has to be this way. I was doing fine before Christmas. I was already forgetting whatever that has happened. And then when he started to be nice to me and all, I got weak and the whole drama continues. At times, I thought that I may have a special privilege compare to that girl. But still, he sees me as a FRIEND and nothing more. I gave him a slap on the face that same night. I told him "FRIEND not sleep together. FRIEND don't have sex with each other." I was already very comfortable in settling down with him. I treated him like he's already been a part of me. A part that it is impossible to detach. And now.....

I don't know now. I'm tired of running away. I'm tired of crying and trying. I'm just too tired of even to think about it. After seeing all that, I felt that history is repeating itself. The only thing that make it worse is that I've done and I've given more than what I should give. Perhaps it's true after all what people said. If you love someone, don't give yourself up 100%. Keep some for yourself. What truly upset me, he of all other people knew what I went through last time. How I got my heart broken like a shattered glass. How I despise man. How I build my defense so high and strong. How I became so cold. He knew what I went through. And yet he dare to do that to me. I remember when I agreed to be his girlfriend, I told him not to break my heart and not to make me cry again. But in the end, I shed tears more than what I should shed and my heart broke more than what it should be.

I'm very tired now. I don't know what is going to happen to me......

A new beginning

A new life. A new beginning. That is all I can say. I'm out of what I would call hell and it seems that life has been good to me (I hope I didn't speak too soon). But it has been great. A lot of things happens these past few months after my last update. Too many exciting things. Too many interesting things. Too many coincident things. Some unexpected things.

The petrol price is increasing....again. This is the ....I lost count of how many times. At times I wonder why is there no alternative to find the replacement for petrol. What is the government doing? These days, the propaganda should be like the one in V for Vendetta. "The people should not be afraid of the government. The government should be afraid of the people." Even if it is just a statement from a movie, realistically, that is what it is suppose to be. All this while, everybody up there doesn't seem to be working their brains out on how to tackle the issue. Everyone just say yes to someone and then implement it. Not taking into consideration of how the people is doing. Let alone those with the higher income group. What about those who are not earning as much as the C level? What would happen to those people? Are they going to be left out and left to suffer? After all, they are also the one who actually help to build the nation. I guess that is the main reason why I don't vote at all. Because at the end of the day, it's all about the politician's interest and never the people's interest. Even if during the campaign period, they would shout out loud that they are going to help the people. That is soooooo bull...

Happy Easter and things happen in March

Christ has died,
Christ is risen,
Christ will come again....

Happy Easter!

I know I haven't been writing in a long time. Almost 1 month now. Everything crazy has been happening in this 1 month.

1) I got a car ... yay!! A silver Viva which I've waiting until I feel like fainting. Also, I've chosen to use a Kuching plate no. Something that keeps me near to home...

2) I've got a new job ... finally I'm out of hell. Now I can sigh with relief. I hope this new one is not going to disappoint me. Salary wise...not bad. Actually, they pay according to my resume and they offered me a position which is different from the position I applied for.

3) Baby broke his hand. Gosh. Just 1 day at home, he slipped, fell and broke his hand. Thanks to that, he was given 4 weeks MC. Then, he got his blood test result and the doctor said that his operation will be on 14th May and on top of that, he will be given a 3 weeks MC. So, all together it will be 7 weeks...7 weeks seems like 7 years. *sigh*

A week after Valentine

It's almost a week after Valentine. And guess what is the hottest news in town and is on every major newspaper. General Election. Basically all the news now is about the election. Not that I'm against election or politics. Everytime election is around the corner, everything seems to be like a circus. Buntings everywhere. Flags everywhere. Posters everywhere. Politician calls their counterparts names. And when I said names, it's NAMES and it's humourous. Then you begin to wonder. How can they shake hands and smile at each other when they start calling each other names behind their back? Funny but true.

This year is going to be my 1st year of election away from home. I wonder how is the election fever here. Is it going to be a big hu ha like back home?

Also this week will be Chap Goh Mei, which means Chinese New Year is OVER. And it will come again next year with another animal.

The Tudors

I'm back learning the English history. The Tudors. You know it's really interesting to study other country's history apart from our own country's history. Although it's not as colourful as other country's history. I used to hate History when I was in school. Hate the teacher as well. Can't help it if she superbly boring. To be in her class seemed endless. The click felt like it's moving slowly. Or not, it completely stop.

I came across this show when I was browsing through the list of shows that I like. And I immediately got it and watched it. Put aside the nudity and sex and lust, the story is a whole new way of telling us the story about a King who once ruled England. It's like learning history is a whole new way. It's a bit funny to have all sorts of royal family rule 1 country. They have Tudors, Normans and some other royal house. But seriously, put aside all those hanky panky issues, the show is a new way to know the history about King Henry VIII.

Like what you will hear in the beginning of the show before it starts, "You think you know the story but you only know how it ends. To get to the heart of the story, you have to go back to the beginning." I must say this. This is a brave attempt by the production and hopefully more will follow suit.


Picture taken from http://thetudorsonshowtime.blogspot.com

Smallville Season 7

Clark Kent and Superman. Lana Lang and Lois Lane. Sounds familiar to you? I was watching Smallville Season 7 these days and guess what. There are more surprises than just the homecoming of Lex Luthor.

1st, we saw the appearance of Supergirl. I bet it sounds yummy to some guys out there. Then, the plot becomes a bit boring. Possibly due to the writer's strike in the States. But, like they said...The show must go on. And then as the show went on, we see the other Justice League's characters doing their appearance. But the most interesting appearance ever was .... Dean Cain. Imagine this. The previous Superman doing a scene with the current Superman. How awesome is that. Adding to the spice, Dean Cain's character's initial was also CK. Ironic as it sounds but it's really cool.

Being a huge fan of DC Comics, it's really fun to see them together again. I've been growing up watching the Justice League and it'll be fun to see all of them again in human figures rather than just cartoon or inside comics.

Back to Smallville. Previous season we saw the appearance of Flashman .... Aquaman. This season will see Green Arrow and The Raven. Cool or not? Bet they are going to show more of the Justice League. I'm waiting for them to show Captain America. Wonder when will be the day for the production to show all the Justice League character.


Picture taken from http://bpaty22.gametrailers.com

The meaning of Stacy

I just had to write this down. I found out something interesting on the net yesterday. The meaning of my name. Imagine that. All this while, I thought my name has no meaning at all. That my name is just a glamourous name since I share my name with so many people.

Stacy - a 2 syllable name means; one who shall rise again; resurrection. Look at that. I shall rise again.... Hmmm....It's a bit scary, isn't it? Origin of my name is from Greek. Out of the name Anastacia. Never mind about the origin. But the meaning is just so amazing. Resurrection... the one who shall rise again ... Not that I don't like it. I feel so blessed. At least I know now that my name is not just a name. Now I could feel like the Lord.

Love is in the air

Love is in the air. Love is everywhere. Everywhere you turn, you'll see flower stalls or people with flowers. It's a lovey dovey week. Everything is in pink.... Everything is about flowers and chocolates. Again, I'm going to have a lonely Valentine. In fact, I never had a Valentine. So, why should I even bother about celebrating. Nothing's changed. Since this is a Valentine's week, yours truly is dedicating this song to everybody.

LOVE IS IN THE AIR (John Paul Young)

Love is in the air
Everywhere I look around
Love is in the air
Every sight and every sound

And I don't know if I'm being foolish
Don't know if I'm being wise
But it's something that I must believe in
And it's there when I look in your eyes

Love is in the air
In the whisper of the trees
Love is in the air
In the thunder of the sea

And I don't know if I'm just dreaming
Don't know if I feel sane
But it's something that I must believe in
And it's there when you call out my name

(Chorus)
Love is in the air
Love is in the air
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh

Love is in the air
In the rising of the sun
Love is in the air
When the day is nearly done

And I don't know if you're an illusion
Don't know if I see it true
But you're something that I must believe in
And you're there when I reach out for you

Love is in the air
Every sight and every sound
And I don't know if I'm being foolish
Don't know if I'm being wise

But it's something that I must believe in
And it's there when I look in your eyes

(Repeat Chorus 4X)

Wonder Woman speaking

What a way to begin my Monday after a superbly long weekend. People chasing me for things like mad. The phone started ringing non-stop. People asking me about things non-stop. Every year I had to do the same thing over and over again during this time of the year. Collecting and doing other people's work when noone is actually helping me do my own. Am I super nice to everyone until everyone seemed to be taking advantage of me?

When I change to another dept, I thought that I would be free from all the havoc and hassles and that I could go back home and enjoy my Chinese New Year. In the end, what did I get? Nothing. All I got was people asking me to do their job. Now, this is very frustrating. Just because I'm the only soul who knows about how the things work and I'm not going on holiday, they are taking full advantage of me. I'm feeling like a vacuum cleaner here. I suck everybody's work and my own.... God knows who is going to help me do it. I'm really done here. My patience has been tested to the limit and it's time to do what I'm suppose to do. Everything in me has been tested to the limit and it's time for me to explode.

Where to go this year?

Where to go for my next holiday? Last year the both of us went to Bali and it was superb. Despite the bombing, the place still remains pure.

The beautiful garden of our hotel taken from our room


The Mount Kintamani. We had our lunch there as well and the air..... the air was cool and unpolluted at all


Memorial of the bombing

Now that MATTA Fair is coming up next month, the both of us will have to think of where to go fast. I was thinking of going to Phuket. He seemed to agree with the idea. But all that again will have to depend on our friend's wedding. Phuket seems a nice place to relax. Since I've heard a lot about it, perhaps it's time to go there and experience it myself. And to add to the adventure, maybe instead of flying there, we'll take the bus and backpack. Sounds like a good idea, isn't it? Well, that all depends.

I'll update about where we'll be going after everything is confirm especially the wedding. Can't believe that lady haven't make up her mind whether she wants to get married or not.

A holiday trip to Russia?

Candy-striped Chesma Church, built by Catherine the Great

When the entire office was in Hong Kong, I did not feel disappointed about me not going and joining them. Not at all. Then I saw my Russian system admin and my other colleagues were asking him why didn't he join the Hong Kong trip. I replied my colleagues and said "why would he want to go to Hong Kong when he can go much further than Hong Kong?" And that was when suddenly I feel like going to Russia for a holiday. Russia. The home of KGB. Seriously, put aside all of the politics, Russia is a nice place. Don't get me wrong. Just because I used to admire all the Russian athletes (Alexander Popov and all the Russian tennis babes), I wanted to go to Russia instead. I mean, Russia is a nice place to visit. And again, building's architecture attracted me especially the churches. The architecture of the churches are completely different from any of the churches in Europe.

Not only the architecture captured my interest, I've heard a lot about the Tsar and Tsarina. And I used to watch that cartoon about the last surviving Tsar family, Anastacia. I'm not sure if they ever found the much talked about Anastacia. Also, I remember watching this tv show called 'Catherine The Great'. That is like a Russian version of Elizabeth I. A strong willed queen. If anyone said that woman don't rule, they are indeed wrong. Woman does rule and they rule equally well like men.

Well, let's see if I can have a trip to Russia for a holiday.


© Photographer: Jonathon Smith. All images Lonely Planet Images.

Grey's Anatomy

Friends always ask me why on earth would I want to watch this show. It's like doctors with issues. Who cares if they are a bunch of doctors with issues. Doctors are human as well and they have problems like us. Doesn't mean doctors are God and they are not allowed to have problems. I think doctors are a bunch of really strong human beings. Why would I say that? Well, 1st they are ALWAYS on standby. Regardless it's in the middle of the night or wee in the morning, they dedicate their life to save other people's live. 2nd, they have to fight their own emotion if their patient dies and they will have to tell the family members. It may sound easy to do that, but imagine if you were already bonded with your patient?

There is only 1 reason why I kept watching this show. Because it's about life. Although, not real, we may relate our own situation into that situation. Life is not a bed of roses. That is very true. I like this quote from Meredith Grey "I can't think of a single reason why I should be a surgeon, but I can think of a thousand reasons why I should quit. They make it hard on purpose... there are lives in our hands. There comes a moment when it's more than just a game, and you either take that step forward or turn around and walk away. I could quit but here's the thing, I love the playing field." And this quote as well.

"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away."

See now why I name my blog Stacy's Anatomy? Because like Meredith Grey and her friends, I do have issues of my own. There is always something to keep us going in life. And mine .... I don't know. I'm still searching.

Season of Lent

The season of self denial is here. It has always been a test for everyone during this season. The question is how far can we go for the self denial and what is actually 'Self Denial'?

I've googled for the meaning of 'Self Denial' and this is what I got.

Luke 9:23: "He said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me."

So, what does the Scripture really means? The a whole string of explanation follows the Scripture. But the main point of Lent, God wants His people to repent, pray a lot more and think of the things that are above and not of things that are on the earth. Although the latter would be very hard for people of this century, but if there is a will, there is always a way, isn't it? Besides, not everything involves dollars and cents. You certainly don't need dollars and cents to pray to the Lord.

Every year during Lent, we'll be reciting the Rosary and read the Bible and read the 10 Commandments. And the question that kept coming back, how far can we follow what we read and recite? I don't want to hear any sorts of answers from anyone. All I would like to do for Lent this year is to purify myself. Do more good. Remember the things that are above and not on the things that are the earth.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lent. This is for further reading.

Prague

Church of St Francis, amidst the rooftops and towers of the Old Town

They said that Prague is the next romantic city after Paris. It is very very very true. I think I'd prefer Prague to Paris. No offense to the French. But the 1st time I saw the pictures of Prague on Lonely Planet, I fell in love with Prague immediately. The buildings, the scenery is just breath taking. The old castles are just like in the fairytale. Not only the castles, the churches architecture are just breathtaking especially the altar. Something about the European churches and our churches here. The way the old European churches does their altar are so much different from us.

I told myself if I were to travel, I definitely won't want to go to places with skyscrapers. If I were to go to a city with skyscrapers, I might as well just stay in KL. I just need to look out from my window and I can see lots of skyscrapers. Talking about scenery, isn't it? I mean, what's the point?

I'd really really really like to go there if I have a chance. Prague, Athens, Venice, Budapest, Vienna, Barcelona...I wish someday I can go there.

Tyn church peeks from behind houses in the Old Town

© Photographer: Jonathan Smith. All images Lonely Planet Images.

Year of the Rat

It's that time of year again. Ang pows, lion dance, honey orange and everything is red. If anyone would like to see a city painted in red, now this is the time. Everywhere is red. Everywhere you turn, you will be able to listen to Chinese New Year songs and anything that is red. Even the boutiques are taking out their red clothes. Everything must be in red.

I was hanging out at 1U yesterday all by myself and I was very lucky because they had this lion dance show there. They do have it every year, but this year I must pen it down. So I took out my expensive phone and start taking pictures. The lion was superbly adorable. Talking about showmanship, I think the lion is a good actor. It took everybody's heart who were watching the show without fail. Young and old. Local and foreigners. All stopped to watch the show. I guess that is just one of the Chinese tradition that never fades. Hopefully it will never fades even if everyone's mind is set on MONEY and earthly wealth.

The lion looking at the people around him


I'm scared...don't these people know that I'm afraid of height?? I want my mummy!!!

I can do this.... I can do this .....Just watch me...


Yes! I made it. But this is scary.....

I know I'm cute and adorable and I rock!! Would you like to it again?


Girls and boys, meet my two friends...Friends...meet girls and boys...


"Gong Xi Fatt Cai everyone. May the year of the rat bring prosperity to each and everyone of you." From the Cat family....* This year I will have to let all the rats go.....

Tribute to the late Heath Ledger

Picture taken from Wikipedia




I first watch this guy when he was appeared on 10 Things I Hate About You. I remembered how he tried to get Julia Stiles's heart by singing 'Can't Take My Eyes Off Of You' in the middle of the field and then the school's brass band joined him. I thought that was super sweet.

Then, I watched him again in The Knights Tale. Something different but he pulled it through. He may not look like those drop dead gorgeous Hollywood hunks like Brad Pitt or Keanu Reeves but he has this certain quality that made him charming. I was looking forward to him appearing as the Joker. But then again, our destiny is not ours to decide although some people would say our destiny if for us to decide.

Hope he Rest In Peace and be place among the Lord's people. We shall miss him.

Cartoon Day

It's weekend....again. Weekend these days are so utterly boring. I know weekend is suppose to be exciting. I guess my weekend is has the same excitement every week. I get to wake up late, watch my favourite cartoon whole morning. Hey...I'm young at heart. Can't help it. That is the only thing that would remind me of my beloved brother. I miss my brother. Wish he was here again.

My First Post

Yay!!

This is my first time, first posting, first for everything. This will be the place for me to continue writing again after such a long time. I've always wanted to write again after I moved to KL but I never had the chance to do so. In the end, 'The journey of two people' became my last creation. I was very proud of that story. It has everything in it. Joy, sorrow, frustration. Nevertheless, I'm going to continue writing again. Post by post. After all, it is 'The journey'. The journey of who? It can be anybody's journey. It can be my journey. It can be your journey. Anybody. Life is about the journey of everybody.

Enough said. I think it's time for me to put on my author's skill to the test and enjoy what I used to enjoy.